Sunday, March 16, 2025

Chemo

 

I said I would post again to bring you all up to date with what is going on here. While chemo is not the most pleasant thing to write about, it has been my life the past couple of months so I’ll fill you in on that. In order to get it all started I first had a minor outpatient surgery to get a port in my chest. My treatments all go through the port rather than a vein in my arm. They feel this is safer due to the strength of my chemo. Since my cancer is stage four and has spread from the ovaries to the colon, they are hitting it up fairly hard. I am currently having chemo treatments every three weeks and each treatment lasts almost a full day. I receive two different medications administered separately. The first one takes a little over three hours and the second one is a bit faster. I always have blood work first and then see the doctor. After that the chemotherapy gets started. I don’t need to tell you how scared I was, especially for the first treatment. I had seen family members go through this but it is a bit different when it is yourself.

                                           My view during chemotherapy

The actual treatments were not as bad as I had anticipated other than lasting for so long. The cancer center I go to has many chemo rooms and each room has four chairs for patients. I kind of like having two or three other patients there to visit with when I feel like it. The chairs recline so we can take naps which I sometimes do. They provide snacks, drinks and in my case lunch since I’m there all day. Before the treatments are started, they load you up on strong anti-nausea medications plus other meds to prevent side effects. These medications do help quite a bit. I always take something to read as well as a puzzle book to work on and there is a TV if you are interested. My son, Chris, drove me to the first treatment and I have been driving myself since then. I hope I will be able to continue driving since my husband Tom is no longer driving. The day after the chemo I go in to get an injection that helps keep my white cells from dropping too low. I also go in once a week for blood work. 

The truly difficult part of chemo for me starts the second night after the treatments. In my case I have terrible aches and pains along with a weakness I have never felt before. I have plenty of medication at home for nausea and it helps most of the time. However, I ended up in the hospital for a week a few days after my first chemo treatment. I was in so much pain plus I had a severe colitis infection.

I managed to stay out of the hospital after the second treatment but all of the discomfort I felt the first time just seemed worse. I also started feeling numb in my fingertips and toes which is related to chemo induced neuropathy. I have learned to not plan anything for at least a week after each chemo treatment because I am just barely able to function during that time.

My hair started coming out a week after the first treatment and by now I just have a little fuzz on my head. It is hard to see and experience that. I ordered some chemo hats to wear although I rarely leave the house these days. We are having groceries and most other items delivered which helps.

So yes, chemo is rough, very rough, but as long as I can manage I am going to fight this with all I have. There has been a time or two that I was so low I wondered if I could continue but I know I have to, so I will.

I’m sorry this is such a downer of a post but as I said, this is my life right now. Maybe if someone else going through this reads my post it will help them to not feel so alone. Or if someone has a friend or family member going through this it will help them to understand what their loved one is dealing with. At any rate, I appreciate you all being here.

 


9 comments:

  1. Oh my, Bonnie, my heart goes out to you. I do appreciate you being so honest about the treatments as no one knows when we might need the information ourselves. I'm sorry the treatments are so hard to bear. I'm sending you wishes for continued strength, and good moments even during the hard times. Please keep us updated when you are able. Hugs, my friend.

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  2. It is very brave of you to be able to write about this Bonnie. Thank you for having the strength to share it in such a readable way for us to understand. I am interested to hear that you are able to drive yourself. I think of you a lot. Life is tough and so unfair. I am sorry you are going through this. Rachel xx

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  3. Sending you strong wishes, it's a bloody hard slog, resting in the following week is a must, your body needs it.

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  4. This was a hard and sad read, but I'm glad you shared it with us Bonnie. Boy it really takes me back to both of my parents cancer journeys. You're a very dear person and in my sincerest thoughts. Please keep us updated when you can. ❤️🙏

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  5. Thank you for the update, Bonnie. A very honest and brave look at chemo. My 53 year old BiL has been through this with Stage 4 Metastatic Prostate Cancer, so I am familiar with just how difficult the journey can be. My heart goes out to you, as do my prayers. Thinking of you. ❤️‍🩹

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  6. Hi Bonnie, You are very brave! Chemo and cancer suck. I am so sorry you have to go through this. Prayers for you!!

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  7. Oh dear bonnie, I am so sorry. Wish I could give you a big hug. You are certainly in my thoughts and prayers daily. Sending lots of love and best wishes. Melba

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  8. Bonnie, this is not a downer of a post. Instead it shows to me how you are fighting and that is a great incentive to others who are undergoing the same things. Sending you some gentle hugs across the pond and lots of prayers. You are amazing.

    God bless.

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  9. As you know, I can relate to a lot of what you are going through. I was diagnosed stage 4 bladder and liver cancer. I hope you are as blessed as I have been. No matter how bad it got...(and the cure feels like it is going to kill you, for sure)...the alternative is worse--lol! So--yes--you hang in there. One day at a time. I am sending all the healing energy and prayers and good wishes that I can, dear Bonnie. With much love and gentle hugs from Fargo. :) :)

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